Posted by: tksthoughts | Wednesday, July 9, 2008

Who I am

We spend life being defined by various definitions.  We are a sex, we are a race, and then we even become a career.  These are just a few of the things that define or identify us. While these definitions may not be ALL that we are, they are a great part of us, especially those that we live with on a daily basis.  For example,  lets say you were a Doctor, well you are not just a Dr. but so much of how you are perceived, the decisions that you make, and the things that you do are based on the fact that you are Dr. 

I have a lot of definitions.  I am a lot of things.  But there is one definition that I have not admitted to.   It is so much of who I am.  It defines my everyday life. It defines my short term goals and my long term goals.  It is a definition that I have tried to avoid with everything that I am.  It is a label that no one wants.  But it is me.  I am it. 

I AM MORBIDLY OBESE.

No not fat, not overweight, not even pleasantly plump.  Morbidly Obese.  Wikipedia defines morbid obesity as:

Morbid obesity, also known as clinically severe obesity, is an abnormal obesity defined as the condition of having body weight over 100 lbs over an ideal body weight or having a body mass index(BMI) of 40 or higher.[1]A BMI of 35.0 or higher in the presence of at least one other significant comorbidity is also classified by some bodies as morbid obesity.[2]

The term reflects the fact that this kind of obesity becomes associated with significant morbidity by increasing the risk of various obesity-related medical conditions.

I have come to a point where I can look in the mirror and be honest with myself.  I am not sure what is next.  I am not even sure IF anything else is next, I just know that I have accepted my label. I have accepted while this may not be EVERYTHING I am, it is who I am.  My daily life is partially defined by me being a morbidly obese individual. 

I do know, I do not want to forever be defined as morbidly obese…….

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