Dear Alicia Keys,

What can I say? You seem to always know what to say and have the words to express what I was feeling and what I was thinking. You sang about love, you sang about hurt, you sang about being a strong woman. When I needed advice you were there. When I felt alone, you were there as another woman to say that I am not alone. You helped me express my inner most thoughts. You showed me it was okay to a strong woman and yet still be feminine and caring. 

I have to say honestly though that it has become a little hard to listen to you lately. I know that I don’t have the right to judge and I know that we don’t know the entire story but at the same time, if it walks like a duck, and it quack likes a duck….well……

I am disappointed that you were with a married man, you became “the other woman”, you caused some other woman the same pain that you sing about. How could you? I know that you could have anyone that you want – why him?  Why her man? I know they say you can’t help who you fall in love with but you can help who you get close to so love doesn’t happen. It is called self-discipline. Maybe you have heard about it?

Musically, thanks for the songs, thanks for the strength, thanks for being there those long nights.  Thanks for understanding what it was like “sleeping with a broken heart”.  You provided understanding when I thought I was all alone.

So while I love you, your music, and what you “normally” represent, woman to woman, I don’t understand.


A confused fan

Posted by: tksthoughts | Sunday, November 7, 2010

Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.

My stomach.


Posted by: tksthoughts | Sunday, November 7, 2010

Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.

My smile and my eyes!

Supposedly they are warm and welcoming.

Posted by: tksthoughts | Sunday, November 7, 2010

Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.

My biological father.

Not that I really “know” him.

But what little bit I do know of him, I wish I didn’t.

He is a waste of space in my brain.

I have forgiven him for being a simple sperm donator. But the more I have gotten to know about him and the “man” that he is, I wish he was just an unknown in my world.

Sad, isn’t it.  However, not knowing each other is his lost as he is missing out on knowing that fabulous person I am.

Posted by: tksthoughts | Sunday, November 7, 2010

Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.

This is more a group of people rather than one particular person for me.

Since I have moved to the US I have grown further apart from my friends and family in Antigua.

There is no real reason, when I first came to the states, computers, emails, and text messages were not popular.  The only real way to communicate was letters and phone calls. Phone calls to an island are super expensive so they didn’t happen often.

Overtime, I got busy, they got busy, and life happened. I don’t get to go home as often as I would like and when I do I feel disconnected from a lot of them.  They say jokingly that I have become “Americanized” and “I am too good for them” but I look into their eyes and see the true feelings behind the joke.  They ask me about what I do and the things I have and I hesitate to share. I have been blessed with an oppertunity that most of them will never have.  We have less in common now.

I wish I could just go back home and pick up the pieces and with them like I never left but it doesn’t work that way.

I miss that connection to my roots.

It makes me feel incomplete at times.

I miss them.

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